I dont even know what to think about anymore when it comes to Lucia. How is it that I can be forgotten so quickly?
I know that this is partially my fault since i left her, all alone, but still, she was my best friend she knows everything about me.... I feel like someone has tricked me or something. Now that she is with Ashley, she is a part of our every dying circle. I like Ashley, shes a great person, and is obiously a better....friend with benefits.... than I am. But that is who I am.
Ashley is a passive innocent child, beautiful and kind. I am not innocent and not passive (altough i wish i had those capabilities). With Lucia, I was always on top, we would have our little things, it was wonderful. Now, im lucky to see Lucia once a week outside of school without Ashley there. I wouldnt have given my experience in Chile up for the world but I still miss what I had with Lucia. She was always there for me, we got through freshman year together. I am here because of her.
My rock is slowly turning into sand, and I cant do shit about it...........