Today I went to a baby shower. It was extreamly boring, just a bunch of women and a few unlucky men. Im really happy for rachel she seems like a really nice kid, but i dont know, i guess i just wasnt in the mood for that today. I did meet Jim's sister's kids. Like 15 and 17, Meg and Nick. Good guys. Kinda like me. Smart, love music but not rap, emo or country. Their mom is just wonderful, really nice and such. I invited them to come to the truck stop with the E later, but i dont think they will. Its okay though, they are in town to see family and if thats what they want to do, more power to them... Im kinda done I think. I feel so weak and stupid, like i should have seen this coming all along. Maybe i secretly wanted all this to happen to me. But there is no way that I could have known about all this pain. I really wish i had someone to talk to. Nick seems really nice. He wouldnt let me hold the door for him and let me go first. Kinda like Felipe. I also saw Nick watching me a lot today. I really need someone to like me but I know that I cant pretend to think that someone likes me, especially someone like Nick. Tall, tall, dark handsome, i asume he wears contacts, he plays the guitar and is in the same state I am, a poorer kid a wealthy school. Can you believe that lunch is OPTIONAL at his school. Horrid.